So here I am. Living in New England, working towards my dream of owning a small farm, and selling bagels. I never imagined I’d make bagels, let alone sell out on my first, and only (so far), Farmers Market. There are tons of reasons why this seems far off for me – for one, I’m a cook, a chef. Chefs and Bakers have been known to be rivals and not many cross over from one to the other. Two, before I landed in the Berkshires of Massachusetts I was living in LA, spinning and working out 3 times a day, and not eating any carbs. That’s right. I was eating less than 30 grams of carbs a day. I have no idea how I went from the aspiring model to the aspiring baker – but the switch happened and I’m not looking back. Now I can do both!
As you all know, I recently moved from Los Angeles, where I lived and was born and raised for the last 26 years, to the Berkshires of Western Massachusetts. I moved for many reasons, one being to be closer to my Moms side of the family. Ultimately I needed to get out of LA, pursue my passions in a place that fosters them, and get a change of scenery. I needed to focus on my mental health and put everything that was big and heavy on the back burner, or eliminate it from my life entirely. Bye bye concrete jungle, hello beautiful nature right in my backyard.
When I landed here I decided I was gonna make a batch of bagels. There was nothing prompting that decision, no reason why…but I did and due to my entrepreneurial inclinations I decided to reach out to cafes in hopes they would be interested in carrying my handmade-with-love artisan bagels. To my delight the cafe’s I reached out to agreed! My ability to get shit done has always been an incredible gift, and amidst all of the mental health struggles I’m undergoing I know that baking and selling in the warm sun, outdoors, alongside other people doing what they love will be a huge boost to so many aspects of my life, to my mental health and to my idea of Self. I can do anything I put my mind to, I am talented, and I am valued. Those are all amazing things to recognie, cultivate, and pursue.
So here I am now, taking a couple steps back and reflecting on my time since my arrival in October. I’m sorting out my entrepreneurial endeavors – of which there are many – so that I don’t overload myself! I’m going to focus on my bagels for the Farmer’s Markets, tending to my own nutritional, physical, and emotional needs – and write my book! In order to hold myself accountable for my recovery and my new lifestyle changes, I’ll be posting regularly – and would love if you all jumped in and gave input/shared your own stories!
If you’re in The Berkshires or nearby, look out for me at the farmers market in Pittsfield and if not – sign up for my newsletter to stay in the loop!
If you’d like to contribute to making my dreams come true, check out My GoFundMe. Thanks in advance! If you’re in the area that’ll be a free bagel for you! I’ll send you a picture that you download on your phone, and bring it to me and tada!